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The unwanted love 
My Name Fie,simple 18,loving the piano and a very quiet personnot emookay i'm in PTE Meragang UPPER 6 :), i'm such a quiet i mean a quiet person... but memajal i have the tendency to stalk blogs because i'm always outdated and lost and i have this fanatics on mythology ♥ ( i know i'm weird ), and this addiction to vampires.. they're so interesting to me :) I'M OFFICIALLY WEIRD! AND LOVING IT ♥ Chat Links perfectoneword.
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bored - Monday, February 15, 2010 4:25 PM bloggies , well its been a while i didn't switch on my lappy as most of my posts are done with my mobile hehe :).. so firstly HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR TO CHINESE haha today as usual nothing new been stuck doing geography and sociology, i missed VAL party yesterday X( i think i was too tired from the mall then the beach~ (if your reading this val, i'm sorry i didn't come).. tomorrow would be school again -_- excited? hahah not really~ i want to rest XD~ Cold - Friday, February 12, 2010 12:14 AM can't sleep because i slept at noon,haha its so cold now, i'm being random,this coming suday i'm excited to hangout at the same time it reminds me the time at icc consumer fair last year,with a rose on my hand the more i think the more i regret i lose him,more times i wish i could say i miss him but its impossible,like i said i haven't move on & giving my heart to someone didn't helped but just making it worst 4 me Goodluck, - Wednesday, February 10, 2010 6:02 AM Good mornin~ okay today 3 assestment test socio,psycho, and geo, been studying lately lets hope this really paid off Ptem currently open for admission for lower6 ,crowded?Yeap and i saw my friends though they didn't saw me,no worries, wish me luck ps:i'm still not over you~sigh, still its hard to forget you D~ i just can't take it - Saturday, February 06, 2010 7:12 PM sometime have you ever feel like you can't take it anymore? When people kept looking down on you,yes we all sabar right?But at some point it hurts alot, when you succeed something yes you are happy but please don't look down on the people who didn't succeed like the way you say it 'in your face' its like your saying we didn't suceed because we didn't try but we did. regard as family,i know your apart of it,but i've been suffering because of you,years i've been like this,year i'm patient now i just can't take it - 7:12 PM I'm proving myself to be strong,yet i'm always vulnerable inside, all i can do is pretend everything alright when its not, this stress at home and school pushes me to the limit where i go crazy but i can't,sigh, just now realy i can't stand it, i want to run away from home,but i know its wrong. I have to prove myself ,what i can. easier said than done,i'm going to change that battle, anyways,i think i'm going to be alright tomorrow, but i miss him everywhere i see (14th feb,2009 your rose ) love story - Friday, January 29, 2010 10:05 PM i been listening to the song love story by taylor swift, somehow i'm still addicted, i'm not yet asleep still doing a bit of geography and study a little of psychology, did a little recording of two songs , i'm Happy ...TEE loved the song i gave her like i promise i would :) as her advance birthday present. i've been having weird dreams lately so weird because it was about the "UPCOMING RESULTS" i was flipping at some papers on a bulletin board so weird,~ scary, i know everyone scared~! Today Friday, same as always, i miss music school~ i miss my old teacher, I'm excited for SUNDAY~ !  JOBLESS~ i'm missing you, quietly, i'm missing you, silently, i'm loving you, till god knows when, i'm sorry, for the pain, i'm crying inside, as i lie a smile on my face a friend made me realize the truth of me, that hurts alot but i owe him because a chance to change is something big, to be better and to learn, i thank you ~ so much for hitting me the truth~ "truth hurts, that how it is" and m learning to accept its true so i won't deny it anymore~ 14th february 2009~ lovely rose~ PTEM Open day - Thursday, January 21, 2010 7:25 PM Today was the official of the school open day, there were so many exhibitions , activities , tour for everyone and the upcoming juniors . With this open day I think the upcoming student might have some idea what they will face in form 6 , how lucky of them :). Music club have their own jamming session at the ampitheatre , it was tiring but fun, i was really HAPPY to see Tara , its been ages i didn't see her its like years but its only been 1 month, haha, then meeting for the first time her best friend Fida, really felt like we known each other for a while :) i can see that she and tara are alike. I can say PTEM is almost full of students from different school, really confusing, and some registered early for the music club was greatful of that. then things ended by 4 everyone started to go home, really was a tiring fun day. But one things for sure, i get this funny feeling everytime i see him, its feels like the first time I saw him , seeing him talking to my mom , my aunt, and my cousin Fai is like i'm missing what i missed the most : getting along. i've been missing badly, hiding myself away , pretending everything okay, In my heart I felt so true no one could ever replaced him in my heart, the way he is , the way he acts, though i tried so hard to forget him but nothing ever did work, giving my heart to someone else is not working. I end up being the way I am right now. I'm selfishly regretting everything i done that Hurt him , that made him sad and cry. Now i know how he once felt yet i'm so foolish. *sigh* i don't mind if he likes someone or in love with someone else, as long as he happy the way he is, i can't chase him although it feels like I WANT to chase him more than anything , i screw up my chances and thats it. but i'm afraid i lost already. :'( clearly i need him in my life if there a last chance being with you  i keep these petals in a box , though it withers and dry it remind me being with you was the happiest time in my life, |
