PTEM Open day

Today was the official of the school open day, there were so many exhibitions , activities , tour for everyone and the upcoming juniors . With this open day I think the upcoming student might have some idea what they will face in form 6 , how lucky of them :).

Music club have their own jamming session at the ampitheatre , it was tiring but fun, i was really HAPPY to see Tara , its been ages i didn't see her its like years but its only been 1 month, haha, then meeting for the first time her best friend Fida, really felt like we known each other for a while :) i can see that she and tara are alike.

I can say PTEM is almost full of students from different school, really confusing, and some registered early for the music club was greatful of that. then things ended by 4 everyone started to go home, really was a tiring fun day.

But one things for sure, i get this funny feeling everytime i see him, its feels like the first time I saw him , seeing him talking to my mom , my aunt, and my cousin Fai is like i'm missing what i missed the most : getting along. i've been missing badly, hiding myself away , pretending everything okay,

In my heart I felt so true no one could ever replaced him in my heart, the way he is , the way he acts, though i tried so hard to forget him but nothing ever did work, giving my heart to someone else is not working. I end up being the way I am right now.

I'm selfishly regretting everything i done that Hurt him , that made him sad and cry. Now i know how he once felt yet i'm so foolish. *sigh* i don't mind if he likes someone or in love with someone else, as long as he happy the way he is, i can't chase him although it feels like I WANT to chase him more than anything , i screw up my chances and thats it. but i'm afraid i lost already. :'( clearly i need him in my life if there a last chance being with you

i keep these petals in a box , though it withers and dry it remind me being with you was the happiest time in my life,