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The unwanted love 
My Name Fie,simple 18,loving the piano and a very quiet personnot emookay i'm in PTE Meragang UPPER 6 :), i'm such a quiet i mean a quiet person... but memajal i have the tendency to stalk blogs because i'm always outdated and lost and i have this fanatics on mythology ♥ ( i know i'm weird ), and this addiction to vampires.. they're so interesting to me :) I'M OFFICIALLY WEIRD! AND LOVING IT ♥ Chat Links perfectoneword.
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HAPPY BIRTHDAY - Sunday, August 31, 2008 9:08 AM Hahahah okay finally m posting again, yesterday i didn't post anything cuz there was no wireless yeah..so i'll post something special today for a BIRTHDAY fren heheh [if ur reading this, this is my surprise for yesterday].. For yesterday HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU! HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU! HAPPY BIRTHDAY SIA CHIN SIAH! HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU!  I Edited this pic juz for you sia!! ^-^ To sia: if ur wondering what going to happen on MONDAY i won't tell you *evil smile* heheh..so this special post today is for sia hehe   FROM US TO YOU!! HAPPY BIRTHDAY SIA *HUGX*!! okay back to today life....hehe my grandfather finally here hehe excited yes..haha let me tell u what happened earlier... *someone*-karang pukul 2 tukar bju ahh jln kami *fie*-okay *nods* ---so kami ready sudah--- skali turun... *fie*-eh kamu lum tukar bju? jln jaa *auntie*-haha salah info bukan pukul 2 p pukul 5 haha ready sudah p salah masa ish3..i didn't change so biarkan sja bju jln till 5..haha so my days around the house will be much occupy with housework starting of puasa...heheh..i'll be the maid *LOL* Fie moving on Day1 - Friday, August 29, 2008 4:07 PM Umphx hehe Waiting for love it hurt so much so i'm taking the first steps moving on although i LOVE HIM its hopeless..but i did see a positive side in it from the advice of my frenz hehe well m happy today so much it feels like the old fie haha *smiles* SO...I went hyper a bit haha early in the morning juz now, more like i woke up around noon, i went crazy wake up then tarus2 take my fone & start snappin my pictures haha i don't noe why it began but it did... Went down alum lagi mandi ate breakfast then cleaned the guest room with fai & sara the cuzzies cuz my grandpa coming from malaysia wanna cum this sunday..haha Fai put played some songs on the lappy with a speaker so loud it feels like i wanna dance haha..he played one of the MOULIN ROUGE SONGS haha it feels fun cz we were fooling around with the songs haha.... i went up back but i didn't take the shower i went online for a while haha replying all comments again i snap myself pic but i deleted it hahah...then i take a shower..then instead of eating rice for lunch i ate puddings haha *randomly*  
Later on i called Chelsea it was fun haha she sounds like a kid very cute voice hehe she the 4th fren to hear me play the piano it soo kind of her to dedicated a song for me...dat the first fren ever dedicated a song .. i was touched when she played one of the songs i cried(seriously)...(cheryl if ur reading this hehe smile) heheh POEM FOR CHELSEA First frenz in August, although time was short, i felt like i known you for a while, you remind me so much, of a fren dat was close & dear to me, right now, it feels like i known you for so long, we talked & shared, like what best frenz do, it weird to say, i can tell you anything, But dear chels, Thank you for being a special fren to me.. -Fizah-  if ur reading this sincerly it from my heart kay?? if ur crying reading this take a tissue & smile...okay??hehe Haha oh well tonight, i end my day with movies haha 1.Watched the 'last samurai'[love the sad ending part] such samurai die with honour *i respect that* 2.Vampire knight episode 13..[to the vampire knight fans, my life like ichiru who feelings that shizuka hio could not accept] *sad shizuka died*[can't believe my idol kaname did it...*nnoooooooo* T_T]
3.Watched fantastic 4 haha m such an oldies a bit right now.. Oh well today i played the piano non-stop after talking to chels,the songs i played: 1.To zanarkand-final fantasy X 2.Take a bow-rihanna 3.Namanui neo[OST from stairway to heaven] 4.When your gone-avril lavigne OMG i just notice something..the songs i played are sad goodbye songs oh shoot!!..oh well it is a goodbye as m moving on hahah OH well TOMORROW the last exam for me its ART what to study??haha oh crap i didn't eat today...m hungry *stomach growl* ehe-ehe-he-he post more tommorow nites.. -Day 1 of moving on done- Labels: hungry.. Yeay for Me!! - Thursday, August 28, 2008 5:29 PM Hahaha i finally change my blog skin..umphx it took me a while to master it though hahah finding nice skin takes time hahah...well today i say YEAY! FOR CHOCOLATES..Nazrol came over and send me this mini cakes which r sooo chocolatey.. too bad he couldn't stay cuz no one was home..actually he wanted to hear me play the piano i guess the next time then..hmm right now I MISS HIM i'm still waiting no matter what...but To zakwan: Hehehe ur asking what is tagged? haha juz read my blog..heheh    I'M IN THE MOOD FOR CHOCOLATES!! DAMN IT..CRAVES FOR CHOCOLATE NOW!! Lil cutie - Tuesday, August 26, 2008 7:12 PM  Awwww ain't it lil cutie?? hehe well its a newly-born baby kitten silver in colour with big bwight eyes...haha beside it...the mama haha when i took this photo the mama was like angry at me ' i can guess she wud say.."oiii skatimu ja ambil gmbr anakku..shoo-shoo" *note the glare* she glares at me....so far it has no name yet..[can u suggest??] And today got a check-up in the dentist again..hahah m sooo happy when the doctor said m gonna open it soons before november *yeay* ^-^..then comes the saving of money for a big-surprise for......*top secret*..hahah OMG sia chin Siah Birthday coming up...haha got her a gift..=) hehehe... Tomorrow computer exams juz now geography was okay..haha then i went home late almost 2'o clock cz of waiting fai mom to pick us up after her meeting..i was soo damn bored haha then at home after cooling down a bit i went straight and mandi cz i was sweating like hell..haha panas.. pakai lagi jacket panas2 & that what had happened... Lastly i got tagged by jolin & timah so posted 30 weird habits bout me ?? haha and i link-linked zakwan & rina blog..=D
Labels: *smile* I GOT TAGGED AGAIN !! BY TIMAH =) - 6:38 PM The rules: 1.State 15 weird things/habits/little known facts about yourself. 2.The 10 people I tag are then to follow and write their own 15 weird things/ habits/ little known facts. 3.Most importantly, NO TAGBACKS. This time i'll spill the beans [hehe enjoy timah] 1.I'm so vaiiinnn[i get my fone at starts pose-pose] 2.I love to smile eventhough i'm sad 3.When i wear a black jacket it means m sad & upset. 4.I'm silent when my frenz talk something i don't understand..[when they talk bout DBSK] 5.I LOVE CLASSICAL SONGS [Seriously] 6.I hugged my teddy bear & even talk to it when m alone [ppffttss..haha] 7.My room a mess..haha [do not enter] 8.I make my own poems & songs [secretly] 9.I'm always concerned of my teeth...[although m having braces now i dunnoo...] 10. My close frenz says m different than any other girls?? they even say m unique??[wweeiirrdd] 11.I gave a drawing of rose to my ex..so now red rose is painful[hahah] 12.I'm glued to the lappy juz for blogs... 13.I updated alot of my frenz profile in friendster...[n sooo damn rajin] 14.I like to play DDR at home but shy at the mall haha 15.......lastly.....umm i'm soo memajal-ing much when there something i wish to noe haha the ones i tagged: Faizah Tee Dee Hazreena Ziqah Awie Mmi Syhrah sorie not much to tagged haha need more bloggers *lol* I GOT TAGGED BY JOLIN XD!! - Monday, August 25, 2008 6:50 PM The rules: State 15 weird things/habits/little known facts about yourself. 1. I go nuts and play in the rain when no one looking 2. Over obssessive to the piano--seriously-- 3. I can be very jealous [never admit it before now i do] 4. Frenz call me the live dictionary in english [ppfftts..i don't mind] 5. Wish to look like anime characters haha [plans to after o'lvl] 6. Have the habit of going online everyday. 7. 24 hrs sms on fone. 8. i eat ice-cream with bread..[haha] 9. i mix everything that has chocolate into my ice creams [includes m&m, time out, crunchie etc] 10. i didn't noe how to swim [seriously] 11. i love rock & scremmo songs [lil weird] 12. love to watch korean movies first then homework later haha [banar] 13. i squeak around school wen ppl poke [squeaky toy] 14. I'm a bookworm in novels [i read alot] 15. .......ummm lastly i don't noe my dad birthday [seriously] SAKURA DROP-UTADA HIKARU[translation] - 2:24 PM Falling in love, saying goodbye With a vow that this is the last heartbreak Even the cherry tree, swaying in the wind Will eventually blossom.. The summer rain that started to fallgently streaked past my tears Images that resemble memories Autumn's drama reruns Why have I suffered Almost the same blows such countless times? But even so, I'll probably fight againThat is one of lifes mysteries Falling in love, giving it everything With a wish that this is the last heartbreak Even the cherry tree, swaying through time Will eventually blossom In the revolving seasons My shoes are wearing out, more and more Let go the tension in your shoulders So you can seal away the past somewhere From here they're probably not too far Sceneries you haven't even seen I want to overcome the ceaseless pain in my chest And become closer to you I have wandered about once and returned Always grasping for the blue sky Falling in love, saying goodbye With a vow that today's the first good day Everything, even the cherry tree, swaying in the wind Softly reaches out toward you I love you I love you, it can't be helped That has nothing to do with this This is how i feel right now my feelings like this lyrics listen to the other music box below my music confused feelings XD opinion needed ASAP! - Sunday, August 24, 2008 4:08 PM Again its raining, again its raining, haha not complaining but loving it..xcept thunders last nyte scared me alot..shut the lappy switch off everything juz me under the blanket in the dark *shiver*..anyways.. didn't post much last nite actually i wanted to,... so blame the thunders & my cowardness haha right now m studying for my qualifying tmw is combined science... Was bored last night soo i miss call nazrol and suddenly we end up sms-ing till 12 midnyte..when he told me that he wanted to tell me something..it got me hyper up...but he won't tell me until we meet..haha soo he been keeping me in SUSPENSE...this morning i sms him again asking wat the suspense? and he said juz look in ur friendster comment..okaayyy so i read..SHEEESH!! he such a killer suspense rupanya he juz wanted to bring me out jln2 after o'lvl...hahah but here the tricky part i need help on..... 1.when we texted last nite..he asked me do u still love & wait for me?..then i said yes... so i asked him again...why r u asking me a fishy-fishy question??is thre smeting in ur mind? off crse he said yes...but when he said he wanted to tell me smething.he says.its something sweet & serious What does that mean??....need opnion on this haha  gonna do smething like this after o'lvl miss my long hair GOT ADDICTED TO THE SOUND OF THE MUSIC BOX..haha so today i put in another song sakura drops-utada hikaru kaawwaaaaiii Labels: Popcorn haha Relief day - Saturday, August 23, 2008 9:32 PM well today not much of a fun but i did something stupid-crazy thing tadi haha..it was raining again..no one was at home..honestly I LOVE THE RAIN...so kill my misery i run around in the rain..haha it was so much fun no one was looking and around i juz run around haha..i feel happy with the rain..^^, so yeah last nite zakwan cheer me up a bit dat guy hehe noes how to joke around..ahah he too kind, hehe he full of curiosity weird guy but fun..hehe so today i posted up a new song in the blog first love[music box version]-utada hikaru it was tooo cute not to post it suddenly i love the sound of music box... well i got bored so i search in deviantart for some pics & i got this...(PS:my poetry r original and are NOT copyrighted)..if its a work of someone else i'll be posting their names...^-^ work by ventinne..  raining I'll always pray for you Even when these days are too cold you'll never know this secret i always smile when i see a grey sky as i noe it's gonna be raining soon not because i like rains it's just because i know somebody is smiling thousands steps there i love this poem..^-^ Labels: crazy lil fie m sorry - Friday, August 22, 2008 3:30 PM sorry frenz to ignore ur call & msgs umphx X(..anyway listen to the music box song in my blog here tell me if u love it..cz this is wat i always listen when m sad...this song sooth me..=( Killer POA kills me dead X(!!*crying* - 12:20 PM Umphx!!...What a bad day i had..didn't post anything yesterday cuz was too busy studying..somehow i'm more active in blogs now..i can find that the friendster kinda boring for me anyway back to the killer main headline: KILLER POA QUALIFYING EXAMS KILLS & TORCHER ME!! ... Damn i was struggling feel like i wanna cry my eyes out...well yes our school have EXAMS on friday(how tiring)..but there a light that came hehe... 1.Teerah came juz to send her sis..well i was surprise she was driving by herself now..hehe *happy for you babe*..hehe i was about to break down & cry..luckily i talk to teerah to let it out and it ease me a bit..*hugx* miss her... 2.Teacher Koh was invigelating(lurus ka inda the spelling??) us juz now well he another reason that made me cheer up abit...Doing POA paper one juz now well all of us malas to read the instruction(such a bad wrong habit)..haha well there were only 30 questions in the paper but in the answer sheet(shade the answer) there are 40(its a mistake in printing) haha sooo everyone ask the question 'cher..my question paper has only 30 question'...then Teacher Koh pointed out the instruction off crse malu laaa...haha here SHORT RPG of what happened.. *Fathin* --- *asked a question* *T. Koh* --- *points the instruction* *fathin* --- ohh oops maluku ehh *T. Koh* --- if u want i add u more questions.. 31)who the most handsome guy in this class? 32)Who the most smartest in this class? 33)who the most cute person in this class? *fie* --- *LOL* i laugh out loud seriously in exam well it was funny when you see it..well m glad there light a bit today...seriously even the sky turns dark..it suits my mood..*sigh* even now m crying doing this blog..*sob*sob*..tomorrow a day off again well m still going to study off crse..oh before that... CONGRATULATIONS TO MY FRENZ WHO PASS THE JUNE O'LEVEL EXAMS!! right now m just replying comments in the friendster & browsing more blogs before cramming my brain again but i'm still upset to study right now..*listening to avril songs*..*sigh* such a sad-frustrating day.. DIDN'T SLEEP LAST NIGHT..cz yesterday we had Maths ,Eng, and Art soo had to stayback from morning till ptg 4.30...urgh so tiring..then at home my mom & sara made cookies *chocolate-chip* love it.. made yesterday now its finished so quick.. then at night like i said i didn't sleep..studied but the thing is what i studied nada keluar(there was only some)....POA a huge chapter to read *the book so so thick*..that point i cried.. *listening You were mine-avril* is how i feel now.. its soo sad..i feel like m losing HIM away  POEMS OF A ROSE Elegant, soft, gentle bright red, unforgetable memories of sorrow & sweet, Is how its made, i can't forget the first time we meet, as the time greets upon us, but now i feel it withers away, as it dies slowly in my heart like the rose petals that is falling apart.. Apologies to my frenz who miss call & text me but i didn't reply had no mood today to talk to anyone..all i need is juz a bit of time-alone to gather my thoughts Labels: *crying*sad*upset* Give me your Votes!! - Tuesday, August 19, 2008 8:26 PM Hey, bloggers hehe..juz wanna ask most of you are asking for me to continue the story well i got a questions for you... Would you like me to.. 1.continue the story??? 2.make a new story with new title & character 3.make a vampire epic story? (or any fantasy) 4. Give me your votes in my comments..hehe THANK YOU FOR YOUR SUPPORT!!...*Waaiitttt* too formal...*waves* *peace* :P haha.. Okay this might be the first time i'm saying this but new updates...I'm making stories!!! this 'Tasha & tamaki thing' is the first..blame it how i think for exams cuz i think of someone*ahemz* at that moment while i was making it To katie: Katie if u find my story already hehe tell me more bout urs..haha cz we seem to do a love topic in our exams..crrreeeepppyy you & i are sooo many things in common..it freaking me out!! 
Well today xam preety much okay its juz malay..tmw got a day off cz i dnt take commerce
C-i-n-d-e-r-e-l-l-a Lost her shoe..haha well *writing for exams* then someone jz slide the shoe to the floor guessing it was mash shoe..haha my side of the corner was *LOL* Till the teacher came & kick the shoe back to her haha-(with funny experssion) ...hahah study time later...*hugx*waves* My composition for mock xam..[extended version] - Monday, August 18, 2008 7:25 PM It was a normal day for the students in st.james school except for the seniors in form 5. They had to planned a prom as their final event of their year.Tasha, was among the most popular girl around school, perfect blonde hair & blue eyes and fair skin. It wasn't a surprise if the boys admired her... She almost colonised the whole boys in that school, except for one boy. He was a foreign exchange student from japan. Every girl in school would fantasize and idolised him like an idol.His smile and dashing looks flutters every girls heart like a helpless lost sheep. Tamaki came from a wealthy family whose bussiness industry in fashion boom quickly in just 2 years. The girls who made a fan club would make up excuses asking about fashion but their only reason was to stare at his heavenly eyes and his body. As Tasha, passed by him she couldn't helped it, like the other girls she would fantasize him till she wasn't looking where she was going and hit the large garbage bin.Everyone laughed at her as her face turned red. To her surprise Tamaki came helped her out. Suprised by that moment everyone was shocked. Fan clubs felt jealous but Tasha couldn't be bothered. When their hands touch she smiled. After they went their separate ways, she was lucky that she had spare clothes in her locker. She couldn't stop smiling on what had happened. Secretly she loves him more than anything but only kept her feelings inside for a long time.She hurried to class as the bell rang.She reached to her desk and notice a black note.She opened up and read it, it was from Tamaki asking her out to the prom. Touched like heaven off course she would agreed. On the night of the prom she wore a black dress that was given from Tamaki and wore a mask like they promised. When they met it was all seem to perfect. They danced through the night till it was late. However Tamaki couldn't stay long he gave Tasha a note and a small box. Another surprise he gave her, her first kiss, then left. She opened up the letter. Sweet Tasha, I'm sorry I had to leave you like this but i have to go back to Japan, my family had some problems right now and they need me, i feel bad leaving you like this.Actualli I wanted to tell you that 'I REALLY LOVE YOU' from the first time we met. I was afraid that if I told you personally you wouldn't love me back, i hope i can hear an answer from you soon..But I won't be going back to St. James.. Loving you Tamaki. Tasha felt happy yet sad at the same time.Touched by his words she cried. Then she opened the box and saw teddy bear with words'I LOVE YOU'. It was almost like saying goodbye for the first and final time that they will ever see each other again. I LOVE MY COMPOSITION HAHA  What title for this? - Saturday, August 16, 2008 10:52 AM haha hey hey... i'm at school right now using the computer lab..free periods of lab yeay! Have a chance on updating the blog...Oh yes... TO FAIZAH : HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU HAPPY BIRTHDAY MY DEAR SIS STAY HAPPY-CRAZY HYPER FUN AS ALWAYS I WILL ALWAYS BE HERE FOR YOU MISS YOU BABE! Too bad we cnt celebrate together but i hopE this will do...heheh Go pink XD!!  Hmm well wat else to say?? mock exams are coming & well have to get off the blog for a while till 30th august..oh well bz bz bz studying =P...yeay! nazry coming later ^-^..post more later on/..*stomach growl* awwww m hungry..=p ------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- well had fun..nazry came so yeah.. the only thing we did was playing on the PS2..KINGDOM HEARTS 2..haha played the mini games and etc...hahah seriously this guy juz doesn't noe how to give up..if we did something better than him he wud go like 'eeehhhh aku cuba,aku cuba, kan kalahkan record ahh hehehe'...so yeah he did and he win..hahah yet he sooooo sooo soo sooo soo ssooo soooooooo KMVG with the capital 'K' brabz...umphx XD!! really hehe prasan ia urg korean =P( when i complimented him ) yeah hahah but i still love him though sporting brabz...hahah yeah... 
 intense concentration...*stare* not even realising this shot had been taken Xp oh well that concludes the details of the loving brother coming over..actually there more..no more further detail on dat SURPRISE!!!!  I doubt that not much frenz noe this hahaha yeah diz is me in kindergarden Compare to now what you think?
A SHORT POEM Love it or hate it? love or lie? if love is true? then all this time why you lie? let me hear those words, that you used to whisper to me as i sleep peacefully with u, was all that a lie? was it true love? or was it just a simple crush? Misleading my trust, misleading my fears i never wish to shed a tear, i never wish to begin a frust, i hope that the feeling was not a lie, cz i love you so much i can't never lie Labels: sleepy Killer-bored day.. - Friday, August 15, 2008 6:43 PM  Baby-sitter job..finally over..hahah...yesh been a baby-sitter like for long..waited sara friends in best eastern...yeah so while waiting i've browse around the book that i wanted wasn't there the book called 'twilight' was out of stock =( but the 3rd book was there..had a 50-50 chance buying it till the shopkeeper convince me to buy it since there only 2 copies...hahah saw the 4th book coming soon so i book & order the books ^-^.. Yeah after meeting up with them the 1st time, well not much of a comment but i'm just being their shadow behind...i was reaalllyyy bored!!!....then bump to haziq...hahah he was alone so yeah jalan-jalan with us skajap... so i've followed them yeah suddenly they went to rizquin? haha going up to the lift and go to the swimming pool gone crazy.. dunno what they did cz we split for a while..to buy Nuha her shoes..cz her slipper snaps..kinda reminds me of my slipper incident but mine preeettyy much worst  The backview of them haha didn't manage to get the front view...
one things for sure...i wish i was tall...my height was like not far from them hahah they could mistaken me for a primary 12 year old kid instead of a secondary 17 year old teen gal..umphx.. X( Sad moments - 12:12 PM Hmmm fie here...whop-de-doo opening of the blog..pretty much down in the dumps for me.. here a poem If you could read this, then hear me say, how i feel, i didn't mean to hurt you, i didn't mean to make u sad, right now i'm feeling mad, to myself, right now i only wish to turn time, and repeat it once more, to avoid the mistakes i made, i didn't know what to do, i didn't know what to say, cuz at that point, my mind what in a blurr.. yet i can't let you go, cz i still love you, that will never change. I'm off to the mall later on...baby-sitter job umphx..not enjoying it but got no choice hmmmm.....later on bowling yeay!! ^-^...funny i got an a sms from sia..here it goes fie - *mobile vibrates*(1 message receive)*reads* sia - Fizah later u MUST GO bowling ahh.. fie - *LOL*replies text..is you know who ..... going? sia - bout him i have no idea but i guess he won't miss the chance of hanging out with her..hehe later we kacau him hahah sia, we both got no other job but bully him and he juz bully us back hehe =) the opening - Thursday, August 14, 2008 10:57 PM yeay...!! *random dance* the opening of my blog...what can i say hmm..the time here ryte now pretty late almost like 11pm..close to midnight juz to make a blog? haha...how dedicated.. *fie*-*makes a blog* *watch coffee prince* *making poems at the same time* multitasking huh?? hmmm oh well nothing much to say for the day i'll be posting poems here special request of poems will be done =)... |
