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The unwanted love 
My Name Fie,simple 18,loving the piano and a very quiet personnot emookay i'm in PTE Meragang UPPER 6 :), i'm such a quiet i mean a quiet person... but memajal i have the tendency to stalk blogs because i'm always outdated and lost and i have this fanatics on mythology ♥ ( i know i'm weird ), and this addiction to vampires.. they're so interesting to me :) I'M OFFICIALLY WEIRD! AND LOVING IT ♥ Chat Links perfectoneword.
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crimson thoughts of you - Sunday, June 28, 2009 12:31 PM thank for the cake IKA!!... imagine this scene for a moment its late at night 10pm... you're sitting in front of you lappy.. editing updating pictures & listening to music.. then your cousin suddenly just KICKS the door... and comes in you best fren with a cake singing HAPPY BIRTHDAY unexpectedly..... she totally caught me off guard and m happy to have a fren like ika! =) really amazingly sweet thank you again ika i think i said too many thank you already!..happy to see you again after that few months!  Blueberry cheesecake!! love the blueberry thoughtless mind - Friday, June 26, 2009 12:04 AM  its exactly 12 midnight.. i can't seem to sleep... tuning the guitar, keeping myself from weep.. frustrating with myself.. that i still keep looking back.. why can't i forget? Maybe is... i'm still in deep regrets.. what breaks, what loss, what ego i lie to myself that i'm over you.. why do you still haunt in my heart and mind? wishing myself a life what i wish like it was before..less the burden..that within the secret shadows of the thorn roses that bleeds in me GET NOTICE - Monday, June 22, 2009 10:38 PM I'M NO LONGER USING THE ACCOUNT FIZAH091@HOTMAIL.COM ON MY MSN ANYMORE... MY NEW EMAIL.. IF YOU ALL WANNA KNOW JUST SMS..OR LEAVE A COMMENT AT MY FACEBOOK OR BLOG I'LL GIVE IT TO YOU... Guess Who back? - 8:01 PM FAIZAH!! the Aussie girl is back!!... i was really damn surprise just now... it all started with the MSN with her last night... she kept telling me to stay home for the few days and don't go anywhere well.. i thought there was something fishy goin on bt ignored it anyways.. Then earlier in the noon just now Tee texted me will i be home ? cuz she wanted to come... and at that point something goin on.. i sense something haha.. wait...wait..wait got a call from winnie... open the door... hahaa GUESS WHAT?? A RED CAR WITH THE AUSSIE GIRL DRIVING!!! OMG FAI BACK?!! that really caught me off guard... then in the afternoon.... Fai,win,Me & sara went to swenson for a short while...and most of the ice creams are Went home after that ate my dinner and blogging this post now (^-^)  Lastly Faizah & winnie thanks for the hangout *hugs* i miss you girls...and also i miss Tee & Dee ... lets hope we'll hang soon like old times one of those sleepless nights - 12:16 AM I know this is quite late post.. well this is the pictures during the piano-violin concert during 6th June... i bet most of you seen the pictures in my facebook but if u haven't well here it is... Alfredo the pianist / Sebastian the violinist PS : I'll be posting the pictures of the beach + BBQ soon...   Sara,Me,Tara & Afif.  
   i know i    i'll remember the moment i went zombie over the violin... seriously i feel in love with the sound of the violin... off course my piano still in my heart... i want to learn violin!..... Are you still thinking about ur ex? (quiz) - Tuesday, June 16, 2009 4:50 PM Here is the analysis: Your ex clearly broke your heart and you haven't yet moved on. Remember that time heals all sorrows, so look positively towards the future. Don't be blinded to the love that might be surrounding you right now. well it's true i didn't really move on!! what kind of person am i? - 4:34 PM i took a quiz when i was reading tee blog ... heheh its a different quiz and i took "what kind of person am i" and this is what i get... Artistic, you love caring for others and this makes you a big sister/brother in other people's eyes. People will find it interesting and comfortable talking to you, and this enables you to gain their trust. This usually gives a good impression to those members of the opposite sex who are sentimental and younger than you.... (^-^) PS : To the person whose been wanting to see me play the piano ....sorry (>_<) haven't had the chance to record it yet.... Elly Birthday Party + Elly surprise 7th & 8th June! - Tuesday, June 09, 2009 5:08 PM   Saiful Amin & Danial Vallen & Miaow!! =D Birthday girl Elly & Faizah (yo deng) correction suppose to be 17th Our errors XD i remember that day i distracted elly away while the others plans a surprise heheh she didn't expected anything and i'm glad of that... i hope you like the cake ell =)...heheh...i remember that shocking surprise face lalala~     time Everyone ngalih dah~~~~    those days were fun though i made a few new friends =) really fun and great that day ..i wish i can repeat that again Don't let me fall by lenka - Sunday, June 07, 2009 5:28 PM underneath the moon, underneath the stars heres a little heart for you up above the world, up above it all heres a hand to hold on to but if i should break, if i should fall away what am i to do? i need someone to take, a little of the weight or ill fall through. you're just the one that i've been waiting for i'll give you all that i have to give and more but dont let me fall.. take a little time, walk a little line got the balance right give a little love, gimme just enough so that i can hang on tight.. we will be alright, i'll be by your side i wont let you down but i gotta know, no matter how things go that you will be alright. you're just the one that i've been waiting for i'll give you all that i have to give and more but dont let me fall. underneath the moon, underneath the stars heres a little heart for you up above the world, up above it all heres a hand to hold on to. your just the one that ive been waiting for ill give you all that i have to give and more but dont let me fall.. you'll be the one that i'll love forever more ill be here holding you high above it all but dont let me fall i love this song very cute its dedicated to the cheeka's / ratna / tara & the crew!! anime related - Friday, June 05, 2009 9:18 PM   A MUST SEE ANIME - KUROSHITSUJI!!"I'm one hell of a butler" i love that line!!..demon butler to be precise don't ask me why... just watch the anime believe me its funny and awesome...been watching it today funny... its been a while not watching anime  CAN'T WAIT FOR THE HANGOUT (^-^)why? - Wednesday, June 03, 2009 3:34 PM Basssssyyyyy... well she had to switch block in psychology ... i'm so upset that she had to change.... y? why she have to move? =(... congratz to fyaizah who got accepted to technical school.. really going to miss her in GP class.. Even "he" changed classes i don't noe whether that a good thing or a bad thing.. it hurts to see him.... BUT without him i feel like i miss him..this year didn't turn out so great..like i hope it would be.... I'm so vulnerable, like a glass, the shattered glass, that penetrates, my heart i had enough of what i had to say, turn back things, nothing seem to go away, I'm not a girl, who into flings. I just can't accept, on what that has done, looking at you, looking at the past. i feel like i only love you till the last year of 2009 and forever Will you ever still be mine? Sadness and sorrow? - Tuesday, June 02, 2009 7:31 PM why that title because there this one song called "sadness & sorrow" the sound really sad.. i could feel it..today as usual.. but i can't just understand why i cried? why is it hurt to see him?...i cried during psychology...seeing him i'm trying to avoid.. yet during lunch Elly went home early..so i hangout with tara (^-^) who would have guessed? THE MUSIC CREW we all hang near the student centre?? Jur,Tara,Sham,Mey,Iqhwan,Ruzaimie,Me....well it's weird though with them i feel like myself, with them i feel so free, off course were so "panat" again.. again merepek...hahah with the standard malay.... we made alot of noise making fun... not to mention making noise with the flute and all *lol*....hahaha Then CCA music? i end up teaching them..it feels nice to share knowledge yet m sooo INEXPERIENCED in teaching i'm trying my best to make them understand..-.-.....and "The threesome" just now just had their fun by being crazy (right tara? u noe what i mean) Lastly i'll end this post by saying THANK YOU TARA AND JUR FOR CALMING ME LAST NIGHT... ( i know i panic , and more panic and panic panic panic )...luckily found it THANK YOU BASY & ELLY for cheering me in psychology... THANK YOU MISS PAULINE...(i'll see you around) AND THANK YOU MUSIC CREW (^-^) i THANK YOU SO MUCH! PS : TO THE PEOPLE WHO I TAUGHT JUST NOW IF YOU GUYS HAVE ANY PROBLEM HOW I TEACH TELL ME Let it be this way.. - Monday, June 01, 2009 1:28 PM  It's been 2 nights i've been crying , it's been 2 nights those words are haunting it's been 2 nights, 2 nights of tears.. i know i love him so much.. yet there nothing much i can do, i wish to change or to undo time..i'm really wondering and thinking about you all the time.. yet i can't seem to let it go.. we're both hurt i know , yet it....*crying*... *sigh* hearing that echo...it feels like a shock that going through me...i get it you had ur revenge but why is it not enough for you to see me cry till again your trying to make me regret again? NO MATTER HOW MUCH I SMILE, NO MATTER HOW MUCH I PRETEND, NO MATTER HOW MUCH I FAKE MY HAPPINESS.. CAN'T YOU JUST GUESS THAT?? I'M NOT HAPPY WITHOUT YOU!!... i know i don't want to be the weakling i just acted as if i'm strong but i'm not.. when you said those words... i admit I REGRET!... so please stop hurting me this way... i jz really want to know how u feel... if u want me to let go of you i jz can't...if u hate me just say it.. if u don't love me anymore i get it...you win.. i lost i lost here and my loss my regret.. after you mention those words...i couldn't stop crying...from night till morning it didn't stop..i cried in my sleep... till the next day i have *panda eyes* |
