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The unwanted love 
My Name Fie,simple 18,loving the piano and a very quiet personnot emookay i'm in PTE Meragang UPPER 6 :), i'm such a quiet i mean a quiet person... but memajal i have the tendency to stalk blogs because i'm always outdated and lost and i have this fanatics on mythology ♥ ( i know i'm weird ), and this addiction to vampires.. they're so interesting to me :) I'M OFFICIALLY WEIRD! AND LOVING IT ♥ Chat Links perfectoneword.
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thank you - Saturday, May 30, 2009 9:34 PM Today i there was this W.I.M again...express so much.. And went home kind off early/.... well my mom bring me to Hua Ho Manggis Mall... window shopping at shoe lover...then my mom so in a good mood today bought me Easi Card & DQ ice cream...Thank you mom!! =D... Right now i'm nerveously shaking i cnt explain why.. I FEEL BADLY HURT RYTE NOW!... shit eh!! Roses i know.. - Tuesday, May 26, 2009 8:36 PM okay enough of the emo post... Today as usual nothing much new.. except there no CCA music..bored but what to do... i know i gave away a few plastic roses that i bought from school.. for charity... blue and red roses...well the ones who got it are very special close frenz in my heart... Especially the reds *lol*... Give me red,white roses and I love you so much...hahah oh well not hoping that much i don't know why m such fanatic of roses it's cliche... and common but i just feel attached to it...    i bet your wondering the "purple petals?"well it's actually from a real red rose instead of throwing it away when the petals withers i kept it.. and made a bookmark... fanatic much? i think i have other plastic roses but i'm just to lazy to show lol.. No matter what...i'm such a na'ive - Sunday, May 24, 2009 9:15 PM i can't help the fact that i still think of him.. so much wherever i go wherever i went... its him is all i can see... is him that all i can think is him that i really miss.. why am i faking my smile around?...why am i making this fake expression that i'm happy...but the truth is i'm so lonely/... ITS TRUE I'M STILL REGRETTING but there nothing i can do much now... the memories.. i remember.. the first met in PDS, the hangouts at the mall, the rose and gifts you gave me... the first date i ever had truly with a guy... i think i made some of my frenz worried... especially tara... i noe you and i are alike that why we bond as sisters... i'm sorry tara... truth is i'm still hurt within.. i noe i cried when i'm with you...and i'm sorry to made you worry so much... the W.I.M made me cry hearing mel poem.. i can't take it anymore i just have to let my feelings out here again and again... right.. i might made up some poetry more than what i post.. i just kept to myself... i fake my smile i fake that i'm happy right now... those WORDS still echo in my head and it hurts... cz i noe my tears are hopeless i noe.. i'm hopeless but i'm still NOT giving up... i gave my promise and i really mean it..its up to him to believe or not... to love me or not anymore i'll wait..hurt me jz hurt me.. when i love someone i love him truly cuz DEFENIETLY he changed me alot.. My last word before i end this post I LOVE YOU ALWAYS!... ='(... I'm sorry i'm still weak here.. crying... cuz nothing seem to right around..cz its jz falling apart.. the roses of petals that withers... What a day... - Saturday, May 23, 2009 4:46 PM  jz smile on a BAD HAIR DAY after school..notice the wavy ends.. *clip punya pasal* hey friends.. just got back from school.... Today as usual.. studies and everything.. suddenly i begin to like PSYCHOLOGY !!. i enjoy what we learn now on emotions FINALLY i can understand why my emotions happens... haha *smiles* except i hate the topic of Sociology..well i got a 'D' for my test well teacher's comment i can improve more if i just know how to manage time and write fast... arrrrgghhh a 'D' sja.. bt i'm not gonna give up !!! Lunch time we had this W.I.M (words in motion) where we xpress our thoughts and feelings...i was really really really shakingly nervous>.. here the poem i made up for the W.I.M just now When i see you it feels like a dream i know it might sound lame but everything is not what it seem the rain that fell are the tears that fall now and then it never seem to end at all i wake up and see all the pain within within... remains a scar To see you afar To glance so near Lies the stories that is unclear Before, I smile of denial the fact that you move on I smile of regrets that just lingers on But.. the smile that you see is not what you seek but the smile within is what you reach Now i realize, regretting is hopeless, on what that has done, i will never be the helpless, Because i know my frenz will be around... okay...what do you guys think??? AND LASTLY... FINISHED WATCHING GOSSIP GIRL SEASON 2!!... i just love chuck getting back to blaire so damn sweet... i noe hanna and maria agreed on this =)... BAD NEWS : my mom said next gossip girl season 3 would be in october? T_T this is just gonna be boring and still in suspense what going to happen next??..... Chuck + Blaire = Back together... Nate = Has his career set Georgina = Well she has plans to be roomies with blaire in college!! OMG Serena = Finding her dad?? Dan = will he go to yale ? ( i can't remember ) Jenny = Officially the NEW QUEEN bee.. Rufus + Lily = gonna marry soon then there Scott..the son of Lily and Rufus... ah well i don't wanna spoil that.. hahah i noe i'm a spoiler here!! XD!! xoxo Fie Boredom... - Friday, May 22, 2009 10:09 AM i just got back from my piano classes , now i feel like my hand ache.. teacher : u must press hard can you see that sf(sudden force) and > (accent) which you must press and play loud?.. Fie : Yes cher... *smiles* *press the keys* Teacher : Louder Fie: *press louder* Teacher : Much more louder Fie : LOL... *press again* Teacher : Better (^-^).. My teacher calls my hand "the soft touch" .. i don't know why i develop this ..while others have the "hard touch" on the piano .... anyways my theory grade 5 is going along well..lets hope i get distinction by the end of the year =)... Last tuesday 19th May.. during CCA music well not much came at that moment.. much quiet..i can't understand suddenly i just went out and think of him... when iqhwan ask me "sis are you ok" well of crse i jz smile saying that i'm ok..he went back in the class and i jz breakdown sitting on the floor and cried cuz it hurts alot to remember what he says,..then... The Panat music crew..made this random-panat-dance to cheer me up... *LOL* seriously it made me laugh(i wish we record that moment)..the jazz music and the dance was so so so...funny...Jur,Tara & Mey ( i love you guys) but at the same time i want to say thanks to Sham , Rahimah,Iqhwan also for cheering me up... After that day on.. i made myself stronger..never to cry no more although it hurts , i'm trying to live my life as it was like before...in my heart i know i'll wait.. Tears are useless, its hopeless, cry may heal for the moment, letting out the sorrow and the pain. the smile of denial, the fact that you move on, the smile of regrets, just keep on linger on, the smile that you see, is not what you seek, but the smile within is what you reach changed blogskin again cuz the previous one was some error..well i hope this skin works smoothly... our psychology teacher been switched to the new one..well i'm not used to it yet but i'm trying to adjust his techniques... easy to understand but *strict* but good.. *smiles*... m still worried though with my studies and everything.... I'm just living my simple life.. simple ways.. but complicated comes along once a while just have to learn to live with it Non stop hiatus - Sunday, May 17, 2009 7:40 PM don't be surprise yes m again haitus... haven't been able to complete vivian request either.. anyways as usual i'm busy again and again non-stop.. Today.. its jz a sad day as one of my relatives pass away , after that happened you wanna noe where i went today?? THE BEACH... yes as you can imagine i'm wearing jubah black colour jubah to the beach *panas* yes i can see that your imagining me in it.. and people jz look at me weirdly...LoL.. MY ASSETMENTS ARE OVER !! yet i'm still having my maths o'level exam tomorrow so i'll be going back to PDS again seeing my teachers makes me happy and how i much i miss them .. the old school didn't change that much... PTEM? well were having this "expressing your feelings in poetry" this week just to let the stress out of you... and well tara planning to have a dance audition on the last day of school for 2nd term...and the rest is normal Anyways lately in this few weeks i wasn't happy for a lot of reasons but i'll just keep this to myself..my senses(instinct) get weird and stronger .. whatever i feel is 95% accurate but what i feel is always something i don't know and not expecting but i felt when something is wrong or about to happened at that moment .... i talked about this to my grandmother and she called it a "gift" all people have it though but some are just stronger... its good to have it to use it for the better...  PS : I DID NOT DYE MY HAIR XD!!! hahaha *photoshop* i'm back - Friday, May 01, 2009 7:26 PM i know i'm like on haitus for a while.. because there nothing much fun to say and it's been busy nowadays...anyways to my dear readers / frenz i changed blogskin and my profile back to new fresh look (^-^) Today Grah came to my house..well we did the sociology project..lets hope the presentation going to be smoothly tomorrow i hope...(finally we finish the project) yesterday the music club (as i'm part of the secretary for lower 6) decides to make a banner for the "battle of guitars and ptem idol" it took a while for them to draw but it was fun...i really had so much fun with them..especially tara & sham (so funny) *posing2* while drawing on the banner.. Tomorrow...well i think we're gonna continue the banner (i think) then there will be the pre-olympic that alot of PTEM volunteer to help =) .... i think this is the only bit i'll update today...and to vivian : i shall fulfill ur request soon!! TRIPLE "i" gang : yes viv we shall find and kidnap siah if i get my license kay? and viv, do you have a blog? i guess i never really did move on from you D..xoxo |
